I see time and time again, through inquiries or on social media, the desire by many to be willfully blind to the antisocial condition. Frankly, it’s delusional. Ignoring all evidence in front of them, they seek to paint antisocials as the victims of society rather than the batterers that we are. I am more than willing to embezzle the trust that others give me, but I’ve also said all along that maybe you shouldn’t give the keys to the world to those that are already proficient in lockpicking.
I grow tired of everyone trying to justify my condition. “Oh it must have been due to abuse; it’s okay to act this way as a result.” “Obviously your genetics are flawed and you can’t control that, it’s okay.” I’ve heard countless other pathetic excuses as well. Some of these are used by those that want to fake ASPD and/or psychopathy for some reason and some of them are from those that wish to white knight my condition. Everyone needs to cut out their tongues and these words. I am a demon. I am created in God’s image and it is my choice as to whether I will live or die by this condition. The choices I make determine my humanity, not the warbling of the social justice movements seeking to make saints out of the condemned.
Some antisocials argue that there is gain to be had in pursuing social justice. I don’t buy this. My hate hibernates and I’ll get ahead in other ways. What do I care if I can legally marry or have my gender marker updated with my state? These get me little. What I want is to be a force as an individual, not a slice of a larger movement. I may give tacit approval to those aligned with my causes, but ultimately I am concerned with only one person: me.
This is not to say that I am without anger toward those social issues that affect me. I want privilege as badly as anyone else. However, I am a firm believer that the larger mass will dictate my fate given enough support. This contrasts with my status as a psychopath in which I know that I have to fight my own fight. I’m not going to waste my hate on something that others are fighting for. I’m going to spend my hate on the issues dearest to me and dictated solely by me.
Others may bathe in the status gained by being on the right side of history, but such endeavors do not appeal to me. I’m more concerned about the underbelly of the human condition. If I’m going to waste my energy on something worth fighting for, it will be the fight that no one else will take up. My self-grandiosity and megalomania demands no less. I’m far too unique to waste my energy on anything lesser.
All of that said, I do want to hear from other antisocials and psychopaths. I may very well be in the minority here. I want to know what altruistic reasons you have for fighting for a cause bigger than yourself. I’m sure the answers will be highly elucidating.
People want to believe that they are part of something bigger. For many this takes the route of individuals seeking to create social change. However, people also want to be part of something bigger for free. They do not want to expend the effort needed to create that connection; they want it to be a self-evident fact. I may not be a fan of those that seek social justice due to my exclusion from their efforts, but I am certainly nonplussed with their efforts when the reality is that no effort is expended in the first place. People must always prove their worth to me, and no worth is conveyed by those that are mere parrots.
The most egregious error of human thinking is that the world must be fair; that life must be fair. Equality does not exist; it never will. DNA and chromosomes uniquely dictate what an individual can or cannot be. Religions will fight each other to the death. So on and so forth. Any train of thought that suggests that parity can be reached between any two groups of individuals is false. For that matter, any notion that equality between two individuals can be reached is also false. There will always be an inequality and a disparity of power. Whether an individual is atheist, transgender, homosexual, black, or any other characteristic that brings upon an inherent dearth of power should not matter. What does matter is leaving the herd that fights for equality composed of selfish individuals and charting one’s own path with their own power; their own selfishness.