I touched a bit on my anger management issues in the previous post, but I wish to elaborate a bit further with this one. In many ways, the psychopathic condition is one of being child-like. We don’t like doing our “chores” (parasitism), we reach out for shiny objects that catch our eye (impulsivity), and we often cannot regulate our own behaviors (poor behavioral controls). The jury seems out as to whether the majority of psychopaths have the anger problems that I do. Sometimes I am painfully slow to anger, and other times I am set ablaze by the tiniest ember. There does not seem to be rhyme nor reason to whether I am slow burning or whether I immediately punch my red button and go nuclear.
I have no filter between my brain and words or my brain and my hands. I act instinctually and often to the dismay of others. I am a landmine in plain sight, just waiting for someone to step on my detonator. In the written world, where I spend most of my time, I find that I can often catch myself before doing something rash. In the real world though, all bets are off – though if you should bet, always bet on red.
Irritability and poor behavioral controls are common in psychopaths. Essentially this means that our lack of a filter causes the antisocial thoughts in our minds to become antisocial actions. Everyone thinks antisocial thoughts from time to time, but most do not translate such thoughts into actions as they realize both the consequences to be had and the abnormality with respect to the personality that they project. The psychopath is a mental four year-old in many respects. We think, we act, we move on.