I often hear remarks along the lines of “psychopaths are bad people” or “psychopaths are evil”. But, I wonder if this is entirely true. I will admit, the concepts of good and evil escape me. I believe that everyone can be deviltouched under the right circumstances and I believe that altruism does not exist outside of a societally mandated context. Likewise, I believe that even the coldest of hearts can do good. Whether good or evil is all about opportunity and need. So then, are psychopaths universally “bad”? Is even an individual psychopath guaranteed to be “evil”? I don’t necessarily believe so, because everyone is subject to desires of morality or immorality and the antisocial is not unique with her bad behavior.
I’ve written that psychopathy is the ultimate in gamesmanship. There are rules and encounters and there are winners and losers. I’ve written that that our bloodlust must be contained in order to remain free and undetected. I don’t want to candy coat things, however. There is, at least for me, a high in winning these games. It is exhilarating to know that I can take on nearly anyone and come out the victor. Striking from the shadows and leaving with the spoils is addicting. I know that maturation requires pro-social behavior, even if I will never have a pro-social mindset. However, I also know that the perfect balance between perception and action leads to the highest gain. Action is much more satisfying, however. What good is there in being the best player in the game if it is not proven? In this sense, I’m like a junkie without a needle searching for his next fix – knowing that I should not act, but seeking the satisfaction of victory.