Part of the reason that I have been quiet lately is due to struggles involving Bipolar Disorder II. January was filled with a combination of hypomania, depression, and my destructive Borderline Personality Disorder traits. None of these conditions and symptoms are particularly welcome on their own, but, when combined with sociopathy, they become fuel for extreme behavior.
Hypomania (as compared to mania – which is the distinction between Bipolar Disorder I and Bipolar Disorder II ) affects me in many ways. I was hypomanic for most of the previous month and found a great period of productivity with respect to other projects that I’m working on. A need for sleep was minimal and my energy was through the roof. However, there is a price to pay for such energy.