Any regret that the psychopath has is purely self-centered. We do not regret what we have done to others, only what we have done that affects our self. For me this is most reflected in my decision to transition as part of being transgender. I have regrets, but not for the reasons you may think. The second post of this topic will address the regret we do not feel when wronging others. This post will specifically address any regret I feel as the result of being transgender and acting on those feelings.
I use the term ‘transgender’ in a fast and loose way at times. The term encompasses both people who wish to physically change their sex and / or those who want to present a different gender than is expected according to their biological sex. A person who is transgender is not required to change their bodies as a result. Many are content with merely ‘performing’ a different gender without changing their sex characteristics. I chose to change my body through hormones and surgery. The result has been dramatic. However, there are consequences.
As I’ve alluded to before, I have not always had incongruence between my sex and gender identity. Up until age thirteen or so, everything was fine and I was quite happy. However, starting with age thirteen, deep dysphoria set in. I’m now at the point where gender means very little to me (not out of satisfaction but due to the absurdity of gender in general) and I feel that if I could do things over again, I would have not transitioned. So wouldn’t that leave me with a lot of regret? Yes and no. Once again, regret would not be for the reasons you would expect. [Read more…]