Most of you read the front page and don’t take advantage of all the other resources this site has to offer. I would like to extend a reminder that in addition to the chat room that the forums exist and have a lot of good information for those interested in ASPD and psychopathy. I encourage everyone to take a minute and skim through the topics and if you feel like contributing, please sign up for a forums account.
Some antisocials argue that there is gain to be had in pursuing social justice. I don’t buy this. My hate hibernates and I’ll get ahead in other ways. What do I care if I can legally marry or have my gender marker updated with my state? These get me little. What I want is to be a force as an individual, not a slice of a larger movement. I may give tacit approval to those aligned with my causes, but ultimately I am concerned with only one person: me.
This is not to say that I am without anger toward those social issues that affect me. I want privilege as badly as anyone else. However, I am a firm believer that the larger mass will dictate my fate given enough support. This contrasts with my status as a psychopath in which I know that I have to fight my own fight. I’m not going to waste my hate on something that others are fighting for. I’m going to spend my hate on the issues dearest to me and dictated solely by me.
Others may bathe in the status gained by being on the right side of history, but such endeavors do not appeal to me. I’m more concerned about the underbelly of the human condition. If I’m going to waste my energy on something worth fighting for, it will be the fight that no one else will take up. My self-grandiosity and megalomania demands no less. I’m far too unique to waste my energy on anything lesser.
All of that said, I do want to hear from other antisocials and psychopaths. I may very well be in the minority here. I want to know what altruistic reasons you have for fighting for a cause bigger than yourself. I’m sure the answers will be highly elucidating.
With the influx of additional readers over the past few months, I probably should remind my base that these posts are not the only source of my writing. Those that use mobile clients to read my works are probably especially unaware of that which I am referring to.
Back in December 2013, as a response to existing works on the subject of psychopathy, I began working on my own project. Many hundreds of hours later, the current work, A Tale of Two Masks, was born. Released in a limited fashion, in PDF and softcover form in December 2014, this book has met with overwhelmingly positive acclaim. I may still be determining whether to continue the search for a literary agent, but for the time being the book is still available from Blurb, an on-demand publisher. A link to the first chapter as well as additional links to Goodreads and Blurb’s storefront may be found here.
Intended to overcome the shortcomings of other works on the subject, the work is an incredibly raw (and honest) look into psychopathy that goes into many details that I do not touch upon here on this blog. Framed by the pretense that I must wear two masks – one as a transgender woman and one as a psychopath – it goes into great detail regarding the condition as well as the rare option of psychotherapy and its benefits and drawbacks. No details are changed and while you have no longer come to expect anonymity from me, it puts a name with the condition in a way that no other author has been willing to do.
I encourage the reader that is looking for a refreshing and honest look into the condition to check out the book. It is a great introduction to the subject that focuses on the successful psychopath rather than the imprisoned psychopath or the pseudo-psychopath.
Marginalized groups can marginalize others. Restated, a group can be persecuted and still behave badly. Few want to admit this fact however; too many paint those groups that are marginalized as perfect angels. Maybe only a fraction of those marginalized behave poorly, but we still tend to think of the marginalized as off limits for criticism. This chills discourse and merely exacerbates the differences between the in group and the out group.
I recognize that some believe that I hold psychopaths off limits from criticism, given that I often show the equivalences between neurotypicals and psychopaths in those areas that are relevant. This is not necessarily true. We psychopaths certainly do our fair share of bad things and any discussion regarding the marginalized status of psychopaths and what is to be done about such must take that into account.
At what point do we refuse to separate the marginalization from the antisocial? Can we not acknowledge that both may be evident? Can we acknowledge that a subset is not the whole? I have preached all along that individuals must be treated as individuals even if caution must be exercised against the group as a whole. A progressive society must allow for the discourse regarding marginalization regardless of whether the part of the whole reflects sinners.
No, I cannot deny the transgressions of many of my brethren. That said, there must be criticism of all for progress to be made. Just as the neurotypical may question my motives and actions at every step, I must question theirs. The gap between us is only made larger if neither group allows for criticism by the other. A psychopath that holds his actions as sacrosanct cannot change and will never be taken seriously by the neurotypical. A neurotypical that shields themselves from their own darkness will never be respected by the psychopath. The differences between us in principle are not that great, but discourse regarding such can only be had if we recognize that nothing is truly sacred, not even the marginalized.