I wrote recently about how many faux psychopaths seek to erase their uniqueness in order to blend in with the antisocial crowd. While such a thought process is ultimately flawed, it does play to neurotypical biases. Antisocials recognize the uniqueness of each individual who is psychopathic or otherwise antisocial while the neurotypical seeks to paint us as replicas of a master prototype. They do not want to admit that the psychopath can just as easily attempt to walk a prosocial path as they can a dark and disturbed one. It ruins the narrative to find out that some psychopaths are not abusers, not murderers, not delusional, so on and so forth. In the neurotypical’s echo chamber, these voices add up and paint us all as one.
My therapist often reminds me, whether I require it or not, that I am not an automaton. I have free will and I choose to make use of such. I am not condemned to walk any path that society believes I must. I need not be a monster and I need not be a saint. I simply am. I am not alone. I’ve talked with innumerable antisocials these past two years and I have found others that struggle with the same fight that I do; they struggle to be recognized as human rather than beast. That said, I’ve also communicated with those that are bloodthirsty and one step away from prison. The antisocial realm is a continuum, not a single point. But, this ruins the narrative.
I do not delude myself that my words will change the minds of many. They are entrenched. However, for the intellectual reader, I ask the following. If psychopathy (and the antisocial condition as a whole), is a continuum, then how can any point on that line be considered as a projection for the mass? How can we all be replicas when we dance around some “average” that represents our kind? How can we be cookie cutter clones when we have our free will? Damning the mass for the actions of a subset is dishonest. Condemning the whole as one is immoral. I am no copy. I am unique, and so are so many of us. We do not have model numbers etched into our sides.