A trend that I’ve noticed among the psychopaths that I communicate with is that we do not sit around granting our allegiance to those that do not benefit us. I first wrote on allegiance many moons ago. I wrote then that there was simply no point in allying oneself with those that do not offer some tangible benefit in the present. Whether it is the transgender woman hoping to reap the benefits of feminism or the polyamorous trying to benefit from the movement to redefine marriage in a more just fashion, there is simply little to gain from aligning oneself out of the “goodness of their heart.”
I am not feminist – nothing in it for me. I am not an ardent supporter of gay rights – nothing in it for me. I am not out advocating schizophrenia awareness – nothing in it for me. Too often, groups are shortsighted with their vision and apply their “progressive” natures only to their own cherished in-group. When I ask myself the question of “what have you done for me recently?” to these groups, the answer is nearly always the same: jack shit.
All that is left are my own two hands. And with these hands, I will help only myself. I am the only one that cares about my own personal wants and needs and, at least, I can quantify my own metrics of change and my own measures of success – having no one else to place my hope in and no one else to blame. I am very selfish in this sense. If my actions benefit a larger group, it is because they benefit – most importantly – me.
I will not lose sleep over what is best for the human condition as a whole. Endeavors that seek to grant rights to others that are not myself may be worthy to some but are worthless to me. Rest assured, if I’m supporting your cause, it is certainly because it benefits me – even if that benefit is to only appear as a concerned mannequin in the grand circle jerk of life. That is, I may appear concerned and engaged so long as there is an elevation in status for doing so or a penalty for not doing so.
Fight the fights you wish to battle, but don’t count me in. Humanity will always be selfish with the target of their benevolence and I will be equally as selfish with my own targeted indifference. Your tears are not worth my blood and sweat.